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:: Saturday, May 31, 2003 ::

I loved what Ariell said today.

"being idealistic has no place in this pragmatic world"

:: nimezs @ 1:08 am [+] ::

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Hey, remember a while back I said I went to Sentosa? And someone said he wanted photos of bikini-ed babes? Well, I went back and got them. Hahahaha. Okay, not really. Photos, yes, but no bikinis or babes. I'll put up the site for downloading when I'm done with transferring the photos...

Anyway, we went to Sentosa for the day... Spent most of it hiding in the shade, admittedly. Then went done to the beach and started building a mermaid out of sand. You can see our work in my photos later. And I finally got to swim! Yay! Could be why I'm feeling a little sleepish now. Sad to say, I didn't get much of tan. Pity. Must hit the beach more often.

:: nimezs @ 10:03 pm [+] ::

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I have two great sites.
Or well.
Good.
Or really...
Just interesting.

In a mindless way.

Really..

http://members.shaw.ca/wpgclan/whatyouare.htm
http://www.angelfire.com/or/ninthhell/fortunetell/fortunetell.htm

:: nimezs @ 11:04 pm [+] ::

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I have a banner for my pages... I just don't know where or if I should put it in.

:: nimezs @ 10:41 pm [+] ::

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Let's continue with the emode thing...

Based on questions I answered on the Personality Test, they know that I'm the type of person who...


Has a generous heart
Knows how to listen
Can be counted on

Hrm. I don't know about that. Sounds a lil too good to be true, eh? I know *I* don't believe it.

:: nimezs @ 10:19 pm [+] ::

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Nicole, your destiny is to be a Performer

Whether you know it or not, this is the role that is most in tune with who you are at your core. As a Performer, people are stimulated by your talkative, friendly, entertaining manner and love your generous, comical, and uninhibited way. With your outgoing, impulsive, and positive nature, you can't help but be uplifting to those around you because you are constantly showing them that loving life is productive and necessary. You are always attracted to new ideas, fashions and trends, and fascinated by the possibilities that each represent. You probably listen to your senses before making decisions, but because you are generally eager to experience all that life has to offer, you should pay even closer attention. You may have a tendency to be overly self-indulgent and this could be harmful to you and the people you love. Remember that your charming social gifts can help you go far.


Joel: Shows how much they know.

:: nimezs @ 3:21 am [+] ::

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"SEX.
Now that I have your attention..."

That seems to work pretty well, if you'll notice. Watched Animatrix last Saturday, and despite the fact I had to fork out $8.50 for it, I'd say it was pretty good. I loved the animation and the short stories certainly captured my attention more than the Matrix Reloaded did. Yeah, and the sex too. Every female lead is togged in either butt-hugging leather or sleeveless tanks and bikini-like bottoms. I'm not complaining. I'm, you know, an appreciator of the female aesthetics.

I'm also... you know... straight.

I also bought a mini-skirt. It's one of those purchases that you make because your friend pushes you to... And it's one of those purchases that's going to hide at the back of my closet until I get the guts (and also the legs) to wear it out. I haven't got the gumption for shopping....

:: nimezs @ 1:57 am [+] ::

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-sobs-

There's more than one reader for my silly soap story! MORE THAN ONE! I'm so happy!!!!

:: nimezs @ 1:41 am [+] ::

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-yawnz-

Time to cut my nails again. Bored, but still moderately happy.

:: nimezs @ 10:28 pm [+] ::

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:: nimezs @ 1:29 am [+] ::

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Isn't it ironic? I like to play, but I don't like to be played.

:: nimezs @ 1:00 am [+] ::

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I watched the Matrix today. Uh. It was okay. I don't feel like thinking any more about it, and I guess I didn't get too much out of it because I have this tendency to zone out when people give long speeches with lots of big words, which was quite often in the movie. Have to admit the sfx was fantastic, like the X-men, and the transition between computer animation and real time was very fluid. Only a few things to comment about the movie - seems a bit pagan sometimes, with this whole scene emphasizing on sensuality, all the dancing and sex and what not. Neo is a god and fighting the Matrix is a religion - Morpheus is one fanatic who believes so strongly he can't seem to accept any other path. Or perhaps he can't, having vested so much faith in it, without coming off as disillusioned. Some stuff I was wondering... why does Neo have to put his hand into Trinity to remove the bullet? Can't he suck it out the wound with his "Jedi-like" (As Azmi put it) powers he demostrated with the swords on the wall? Or would that have hurt Trinity more? I'm too tired to think anymore...

Went for dinner with the #medicine gang. I need to get a new pair of shoes... preferably some that don't put so much strain on my calves. We were assigning characters in X-men to #medicine chatters... Azmi's Bobby... Xuzi's Prof X. Heh.

Oh yeah, I realised that Colossus was Prof X's student. Yeah, okay, so that explains him... just never saw him with the X-men before... Rogue came to be an X-man after Jean Grey died. Ms Marvel got back her powers and became Binary... Man... if I read anymore of this I'm going to be one of those fans who scrabble around looking for old x-men comics.

:: nimezs @ 12:09 am [+] ::

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And... okay, enough ands. The End. Till after the Matrix. I dunno if it'll be after 12. If not, you'll see my post about it under this posting.

:: nimezs @ 2:00 am [+] ::

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And that kid with the forked tongue? What kind of mutant power does he have? Or does he have the power to stick forked tongues out at people????

:: nimezs @ 1:59 am [+] ::

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And did Mystique morph into Rogue briefly while she was seducing him? Because if she did... Haha.. that's so wrong.

:: nimezs @ 1:58 am [+] ::

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And they killed Lady Deathstrike off! WHY?

:: nimezs @ 1:50 am [+] ::

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The whole romance angle blows. It just BLOWS, and this is in a BAD WAY. There's practically nil chemistry between Jean and Scott. Sure, I can see they care about each other, but it's not the same as being in love. Bobby and Rogue. Very sweet, there, but... how is their romance important, eh? And I don't recall anything like that ever happening in X-men history. Please enlighten me if this is otherwise... And I swear, I will boycott X3 if they are going to work any Storm-Nightcrawler romance.

And if you've watched the movie, you'll probably be asking yourself: Why is heck is Jean Grey doing outside the plane? She blew up two missiles while INSIDE the plane. (Granted, it was with a lot of effort...) Where. Is. The. Continuity? I don't like the way she turns into the Phoenix. The phoenix form definitely works in explanation for her apparent resurrection...but... she doesn't become the Phoenix like that. I can't stomach it after watching the cartoon. How are they going to explain her change in character?

And is it me, or did they totally exploit Anna Paquin's sexuality? Every scene she appears in contains gratuitous shots of her cleavage. I understand that you want to draw the male-folk, but it so cheapens her character. But come to think of it, maybe it does work in a Roguesque way. Mature Rogue yes, but not innocent, nubile (ack) Rogue in X2. DOOL fans, all that footage of Rogue's bust made me think of Sami. She has a huge bust too.

Mystique. I loved you, adored you in the X-men cartoons, even the X-men evolution one. You were sleek, you were beautiful, and I'm an admirer of female aesthetics. They turned you into a naked, blue freak. I wish you had said more. I will always worship your cartoon image though.

Okay. I did like the exchange between Night Crawler and Storm about anger and faith. It's kinda true. Some people live on anger, and well, in that way, I guess people can live on faith too. I shouldn't have to do so much thinking for one film, but I'm a literature student. Non-analysis is no longer an option.

And I'm going to watch the Matrix tomorrow. May the movie have mercy on my brain.

:: nimezs @ 1:37 am [+] ::

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ARGH.

Everytime. EVERYTIME I HAVE SOMETHING LONG TO SAY, BLOGSPOT SCREWS UP.

Alright. Let's see what I can remember as far as what I typed went. Item one: I went to watch X2. That leads to Item Two: My opinion on it.

The sfx, the fighting sequences, the filming is superb. The storyline, in considering the movie by itself, is excellent. It blew me away, frankly. I especially loved the way Magneto broke out of his plastic prison. He's my new favourite mutant. However, and you know I'm getting to the bad news, I don't like what they did with the original story. I sat through the last half-hour of the movie, screaming: "I hate this movie! I hate this movie!" Ask Joel if you don't believe me.

Right, why I hate it. I hate it because I'm a rigid, uptight puritan, and not in a religious sense. I hate it when films don't follow true to their original storylines.The timing is all wrong, and the name-dropping is a bit ludicrous after awhile. Yes, I see mutants that are yet to be. But you're already working with a huge cast. Adding more mutants isn't going to make the movie any better. Or maybe it will... then all the fans can finally see human counterparts to their favourite characters. Gambit with his red-eyes and lady killer charm. But, yeah, anyway, too many characters. That's why there's so little character development. Cyclops had hardly any screen time, and he came off as largely ineffectual. He ought to shave cleaner too. And it isn't always about Wolverine. Wolverine this, Wolverine that. ARGH. Hugh Jackman is very, very hot, but I'm kinda sick of this whole obsession with Wolverine. There are other X-men. Speaking of which, what's the point of naming a character when you can't identify it?

"Hey, I was Jubilee in X2!"
"Really? Which kid were you?"

I mean... how do you tell? What's Colussus (or whatever it's spelt) doing at the institute?

Please hold for Part II.

:: nimezs @ 1:27 am [+] ::

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Llandel, my hard core character, is dead forever. -sulk-

Anyone know how to bring him back to life? The items there were nice...

:: nimezs @ 11:12 pm [+] ::

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Well. Urm. Yes. Green tea that has been sitting around for a week is definitely bad for you. What else did I want to say? Oh, yeah, I was reading this short piece about Italian researchers discovering that lead and some other compound from car engine emissions causes sperm to swim slower in men. Or something. So it's cars or progeny, eh? Whatever. Pointless stuff.

:: nimezs @ 10:55 pm [+] ::

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Call me bored, but yes, I've counted the number of entries I've made in my blog. 154 entries. This is the 155th.

I'm estimating this, but...

Fiftith post was about the MRT.

This was my hundredth post.

"I'm too trigger-happy sometimes. But that's not the point. This is."

My 150th post was...

"Hmm. What was it I wanted to post...?

Oh yeah. I finally got my distraction. So, go me! This is probably the last time I'll be online till... much later this week, so if you need anything, my handphone no. is on my ICQ. Cheers! I'll let you know what I've been up to when I get back. "

:: nimezs @ 11:19 pm [+] ::

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Hi guys. And girls. I'm back. I feel cheated though, because I came back a day earlier than planned, because my dear friend Lifang thought the chalet was until Saturday, when it was most certainly NOT.

I feel cheated because:
1. I did not get to lie in the sun and tan.
2. I did not get to swim.
3. I did not get to meet or pick up any cute guys.
4. Joel does not count in the above category and I did not pick him up.
5. I felt I ate less than I should have, considering how long I stayed.

Reasons why I did not:
1) Because we arrived late and left early. No sun.
2) When you haven't slept for 22 hours, going for a swim isn't exactly a good idea.
3) That's pretty much my own fault.
4) Heh.
5) I dunno why. I just didn't. Largely because I didn't participate in cooking this time, I gather.

Anyhow, that more or less summarizes my too-short trip away from mainland. Flirting with the male classmates wasn't all that fun, because we aren't that close to begin with. One of them did threaten to throw me into the sea, but, (unfortunately or not) he didn't. It was probably me, protesting too much. Oh well. I seriously want to head down to the beach to do something fun. Any takers?

Hmm. I wonder if this bottle of green tea is still drinkable. It's been here for a week.

-takes a tentative sip-

Well folks, if I'm not here tomorrow, you know why.

:: nimezs @ 10:03 pm [+] ::

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BRING ON THE BIKINI-ED BABES!

:: nimezs @ 12:30 am [+] ::

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went out. had lunch with fabian. bought a prez for shumin. coffee and light shopping with mel. I can't go on anymore. my muse is not with me tonight.

:: nimezs @ 12:30 am [+] ::

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I played mahjong today. I won $2.20, which isn't too bad, when you look at it overall, but in considering that I managed to get the "13 Orphans" play for $1.60 per person for the very first round, you'll see that I lost a lot eventually.

Then I played Tomb Raider. Bored, so skipped level, now stuck jumping over chasm on some kinda cart thing. I don't know what else to do now... but I'm going to bed early again.....

:: nimezs @ 9:47 pm [+] ::

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Hmm. What was it I wanted to post...?

Oh yeah. I finally got my distraction. So, go me! This is probably the last time I'll be online till... much later this week, so if you need anything, my handphone no. is on my ICQ. Cheers! I'll let you know what I've been up to when I get back.

:: nimezs @ 10:21 pm [+] ::

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tantric

Tantra \Tan"tra\ (t[a^]n"tr[.a]; t[u^]n"-), n. [Skr.] (Hinduism) A ceremonial treatise related to Puranic and magic literature; esp., one of the sacred works of the worshipers of Sakti. -- Tan\"tric (-tr[i^]k), a.

So that's what tantric means. Hmmmmmmm. Tantric sex. Well... if google.com is anything to go by, I won't be having hot tantric sex anytime soon because I doubt anyone I know COULD know how to practise tantric sex. Plus, there's always air-conditioning.

:: nimezs @ 4:25 am [+] ::

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Am I co-dependent?

:: nimezs @ 2:07 am [+] ::

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I'm writing this because I thought of this when I was reading other blogs. This whole idea of being a stranger to others. When you read other blogs, read about their daily lives and all, you suddenly get this feeling that no matter how close two people are, there's always a big chunk of life that they don't share together. There are always references and people you've never heard of raised in the blogs, and the more you read, the further and further you feel from this person you thought to be your friend.

Maybe this ties to some issues of possession - of the need to completely possess every minute of someone else's life. I think possessive people have very hard lives. They're probably always feeling left-out from their partner's lives. No wonder they turn into crazy stalkers.

Seriously, I feel like I'm going to fall apart now I've got nothing to do. I've got no life, and the only way I can stop thinking and emoting and going crazy is to read and read and read and post. I'm running out of things to read and words to say. I need a distraction. Help.

:: nimezs @ 1:36 am [+] ::

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Ah, the epitome of life as an unemployed slob. Wake up late, do nothing. Eat, eat, eat and grow fat. There's nothing to blog about even. Tomorrow's Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Day, all.

:: nimezs @ 9:42 pm [+] ::

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Alrighty. It appears to me I'm always posting a day late because I post after 12. Anyhow, today, I went out with Huishan and Azmi. It wasn't terribly fulfilling, but it was fun to see them. Azmi noticed that I cut my hair. I'm impressed. What a sweetheart. -lol-

I can't think of anything else to say. Urm. Well, I added another chapter to my soapie. That's all. In the process of adding more characters. Even by my standards, this soap is turning out to be quite bad writing... The story-line is kinda hard to swallow. Lots and lots of heavy emotional scenes as per real soaps though, but not the same amount you see. Heh... Anyway, you know where my soapie is. Silly stories and stuff. Nobody ever comments on anything I say. Is it because it's so brilliant that you're speechless or I'm just not very thought-provoking? Sorry. Promised I wouldn't complain anymore.

-purses lips-

:: nimezs @ 12:35 am [+] ::

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Let's try a different system today. Instead of telling you what I did today, I'll just insert humourous moments. How's that sound???

I spent lots of time in the surreal dream world today. Almost like being on drugs, except with your eyes closed and your brain-stem making with the electrical mojo. Is there really much difference in that?

After dinner, my brother was commenting that Time was too chim for him and he couldn't understand it.
Me: You can't read Time?
Snerk.

Reading a recap of Buffy now because confused about how and when she died. Anyhow, came upon this paragraph, and you know what, it's good.

"He tells Ben that Buffy couldn't kill him because she's a hero. "She's not like us," he continues quietly. "Us?" queries Ben, but Giles slaps his hand over Ben's mouth and clamps off his nose. Giles watches Ben until he stops breathing. Wow. Giles is my new favorite character. He rid me of the pain that is Glory and Ben. All hail Giles." - Sep. Television Without Pity.

My life is not too bad. Will take up more origami and play the piano. Come August, I'll be a super-piano-playing-origamist! Whatever that is.

:: nimezs @ 11:09 pm [+] ::

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What's with this iMood thing? -buys into phenomenon- Right. Now everyone knows how I'm feeling. Whoopee. As if you couldn't tell by the tone of my words. Argh, who cares anyway?

Stop it, Nic. Stop ranting.

Well excuse me, 'cause I've mistaken you for somebody else. Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself.

:: nimezs @ 4:00 am [+] ::

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[03:03] <test^tube> u missing a partner?
[03:03] <test^tube> >=D
[03:03] <shalain> missing a partner?
[03:03] <shalain> as in lacking or thinking of
[03:03] <test^tube> oOOo
[03:04] <test^tube> someone has a partner huh.
[03:04] <test^tube> bWAhaHA.
[03:04] <shalain> no, I don't have an active partner.
[03:04] <shalain> sheesh.
[03:05] <test^tube> oOO.
[03:05] <test^tube> but u DO have a partnet.
[03:05] <test^tube> but u DO have a partner.
[03:06] <shalain> partner for what
[03:06] <shalain> love?
[03:06] <shalain> no
[03:06] <shalain> hot tantric sex?
[03:06] <shalain> I dunno.
[03:06] <shalain> football?
[03:06] <shalain> definitely not.
[03:07] <test^tube> wahahah
[03:07] <test^tube> hot tantric sex - dunno = yes
[03:07] <shalain> -roll eyes-
[03:08] <shalain> I'm not planning to have hot tantric sex for a while yet.
[03:08] <Santino> drats.
[03:08] <shalain> !!
[03:08] <Santino> huh? oh ... nothing.
[03:09] <shalain> drats?
[03:09] <Santino> dum di dum...
[03:09] <doei> lol
[03:09] <doei> tsk tsk
[03:09] <Santino> what?
[03:09] <shalain> i think he wants to have hot tantric sex too.
[03:10] <test^tube> WAH LAN
[03:10] <Santino> evetually..
[03:10] <Santino> eventually.

This is the baddest IRC conversation I've had in a while, but it's late, guys! It's late. Don't blame me for being uninhibited!

Aw, come on. I think it's funny.

:: nimezs @ 3:18 am [+] ::

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I've got a blister on my foot.

To quote someone from the Fashion club: "That's the price you have to pay for beauty." Ouch.

:: nimezs @ 12:20 am [+] ::

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I'm sorry about yesterday's post. It got eaten up by the big 501 Cyber-monster. It was really good too. The sword-fighting and horse-back rides. Sigh. The ones that get away. Anyhow, here's a brief and pitifully inadequete replacement blog. Yesterday I finally had my last exam. Went out after that. Day was pretty happy actually.

Alright, on to today then, before it turns 12 and goes to tomorrow. I went out with Jo today. We watched Johnny English, and it exceeded my expectations. I was expecting it to be terribly bad, but it did have its cheap gags and all which were remarkably funny. All in all, an OK watch, though there are so many things wrong with it, I don't know where to start.

We had pork knuckle at Marche for dinner. Jo's determined to blame me for any fat accrued on said person's body. I say whatever, dude. Whatever. I didn't force you at gun-point to buy that, for the 2nd time tonight. After that we sat around at Coffee Bean near Borders and folded pieces of paper. Dreadfully fulfilling day.

Just washed my face with some facial care products gifted by my friend Xing Yu. The ever-so eversoft girl. Right. I wonder how long she's been holding on to them. They better not have expired. Anyhow, at least she agrees with me that the Eversoft commercials are real corny. Cringe-worthy. I'm not surprised she's embarrassed by them. Cheers to the beginning of the rest of my holiday.

:: nimezs @ 11:47 pm [+] ::

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Today, 5th of May, I'm in school, taking gratuitous advantage of their broadband. As it turns out, I was NOT supposed to be in school so early, so uh, all the fault is mine, really. Well, me and myself are on pretty good terms, so I won't take it up with myself. Gives me a chance to take gratuitous advantage of the school's broadband, or did I already mention that? You can never have too much of a good thing.

Anyhow, plans for today include rehearsal for Theatre Practical Exam, which is the last -freeeeeaking- obstacle to the absolute enjoyment of my holiday in self-imposed exile. If only boredom could be exiled as well, but misery loves company and I don't know what I'm babblering about now because I need sleep. Problem is, I just downed about half a can of coffee. So that's pretty much a moot course of action at this point. (Takes a sec to go check what moot means, then decides to leave it in place anyway.) It promises to be a long day. And cold too. Everytime I wear slippers, it rains. Stupid weather.

There's nothing wrong with hedonism, or being a hedonist, by the way. Well, from my point of view. Sensual pleasures aren't non-kosher, are they, or are we living in a Puritan society?

:: nimezs @ 10:33 am [+] ::

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Yesterday... yesterday some things happened, some people woke up, some people went somewhere and some things got done. I'm not sure what happened. My memory is terrible.

Okay, fine, I went to church on sunday. I met some people and they were interestingly nice or nicely interesting, whichever way you like it. Not much else to report, so on to today.

:: nimezs @ 10:24 am [+] ::

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Strange as this seems, my headache's kinda going away, which could be due to the rush of endorphins. Or whatever, considering I'm not actually in any pain. I think it's time for one of those late night rants. It could all be neatly encompassed into one statement which I will self-censor because I'm neither stupid nor disrespectful of the readers.

What [the](insert suitable exclaimation) am I doing with my life?!

There. It's not like it's the first time I've said it, but it's deeply soothing to my soul. Expression of inter turmoil and all.

Have I been forever despoiled by the media and its flagrant use of expletives?

Woe.

:: nimezs @ 1:09 am [+] ::

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I just discovered something today. Ready for this? It's mind-blowing!

Well, you know forks are notoriously hard to wash because of the prongs. I just realised that because they are so hard to wash, lots of food gets stuck on the edges in-between the prongs. Isn't that gross?! We're all re-eating old food if we don't wash our forks properly!

Told you it was mind-blowing.

:: nimezs @ 10:36 pm [+] ::

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I'm sorry. I complained about A.I. (American Idol, not Artificial Intelligence, oh heck, I'll just call it AMI) being YASARS, but, well, I must confess... I watched AMI today, and actually, it HAS perpetuated my belief that all YASARS should be relegated to off peak time slots.

*gets stoned by a large majority of the young televison-watching population*

Alright, fine, fine, I know you love YASARS, but let me say one thing in defence. Today's show was terrible. Horrible. It just shows that popularity outshines talent all the time. What is the point then? WHAT IS THE POINT? How can it be a talent show if you keep picking the pretty, tone-deaf ones to stay? Oh wait. It's not a talent show, is it? It's YASARS. What can I say? I guess this IS the sort of thing that happens in reality. Reality blows! Treynce was my pick. She should've stayed, she has the looks... well, and enough talent. Enough.

:: nimezs @ 10:26 pm [+] ::

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Today my exams ended. Well, actually they ended yesterday.

I'm sorry I'm breaking my promise of not blogging, but I have this terrible tendency to deface stuff. I'm confronted with blank pieces of paper, I draw. Same thing with this white text box. Don't tell the government I told you.

It's not easy, to tell you the truth to blog and talk to people at the same time. I'm trying to pay attention to both things and as a results stuff is not going to come out very sensible. There see? So many errors in punctuation. *giggles inanely*

Yeah, anyway, my exams have ended, and I'm less than thrilled, now faced with the prospect of a jobless, joyless summer. Not that I want to get a job. I mean, I know I should, but I don't really want to. Sigh. Life is booooooring, and I realised that my circle of friends is getting smaller.

Sounds good, but smaller meaning some friends are being pushed out of the boundaries of friendship and being reinvented as enemies or strangers. Smaller circles don't equate to better friendships either. Among all the friends I have, only a few of them can really be counted on in a pinch. Seems to me that friendship is built a lot on time and disclosure and I have neither of that with many of the friends I have now, excepting one best friend. Where the hell is my soul mate?

Ah, see? Blogs always degenerate into rants. For once I wish there was something interesting that happened that I could blog properly about instead of collapsing into a rant half-way through. It's very tiring to work up a good rant, and it's bad for my heart.

Did I mention that I want to go jogging?

It's not nice to laugh at people you don't know.

Shut up.

:: nimezs @ 2:53 am [+] ::

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