Do I complain too much, feel sorry for myself too much? I do try, you know, to be normal, but it's hard not to dwell in self-misery. At what? Haha... It's so easy to be miserable. See title of the blog. Not that I actually question the meaning of life and my purpose on earth etc. etc. Well, perhaps I do question my purpose on earth.
So much I want to say to people, but I will never. Who to talk to anyway? I'm not being delibrately evasive or cynical, but complete understanding is difficult. Furthermore it's hard to break the trend - if you've never opened up, very few people expect you to.
And I really don't know why, but these days, I question every action I take, every action others take, and it's hard for me to see genuine human consideration, kindness... values. There's vested interest in everything, else it's an attempt to maintain a modicum of social propriety. Yes, I am very cynical.
I think I'm going mad. Haha. Definitely a touch of over-dramatization there. But seriously? I don't know how to fix myself and this core of depression.
:: nimezs @ 1:42 am [+] ::
