I think I'm attracted to guys who I can never end up with. Very unconstructive. I don't know why either. I mean, I meet perfectly nice guys who are willing to sweep me off my feet, only I don't want them to. And then there's the guys who are so incompatible with me, so attached, so gay or so not-interested, but still I fall for them. It doesn't make sense to me. I'm seriously screwed up in the relationship department. I will never end up with anyone unless he lies to me about his disinterest until one day, BLAM!, he asks me and tells me the truth. Or something. Or maybe I'll just freak out and run in the other direction.
Have been very, very tempted in the past to just throw aside my priority about "connection" with the other party, and just enjoy the fawning and material gains bestowed. But that would be like... I dunno. I can't think of an analogy at the moment. Anyway, I never could. Throw away those reservations about people I can't connect with. Romantic interests. Sure, it's nice to be wined and dined, but it feels so weird if you don't feel anything for the winer and diner. Exploitational? And anyway, it wouldn't work out. Would it?
:: nimezs @ 10:36 pm [+] ::
