Are you one of those kind of people who a) gets into a relationship when offered just for the heck of it, regardless of any feelings or lack therefore you have for the other person; or b) doesn't want to get into a relationship because you aren't sure of your exact feelings for the other person, even though it seems to everyone else that you two have something going on? Or are you c) the kind of person who's desperate to get into ANY KIND of relationship with ANYONE.
Perhaps it's not so easily definable, but rather these are stages we all go through. I was at A) once. Then B). And now I have a feeling I might be headed towards C). It doesn't mean I'm there yet, but I feel I'm frightfully close to it. I mean. A) is easy to explain... Novelty of first time relationships, or maybe you're just seeking stability with someone you're at least comfortable with. B).. Well, you're either afraid, or are waiting for better things ahead. But when you reach C)... oh boy. That's just... sad.
When you reach the stage that you're just *hungry* for any kind of attention, it shows a severe lack of self-esteem, when you almost prostitute yourself for some kind of commitment that isn't really there... I don't know why I'm pursuing this line of thought actually. Perhaps... I will someday get into a relationship for convinience, for stability, even if the feeling of "liking" or attraction isn't there.
What kind of crazy feeling is it that pushes someone to want so much to possess someone else, to bind them in an agreement? When you like someone so much that you need that title to feel complete - to have someone as your boyfriend or girlfriend. Why do two people seriously dating need a milestone of 'officially' getting together? Is it really all that important? Or does it mean, that without this binding, each is free to date as they please, with no guilty feelings?
Maybe that's why some are afraid to commit. And for the very same reason, many want to commit, to restrict their partner's dating field. A balance here, as it seems, is not achievable. I really don't know what I want at the moment - to be able to play the field, or to settle down with someone I can rely on to be there for me.
:: nimezs @ 11:46 pm [+] ::
