:: No hablo estúpido ::

One night in Bangkok and the world's your oyster!

They were having a 2 for 1 offer on male escorts. They seem to lack a little energy though.

:: nimezs @ 2:11 am [+] ::

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So, yes, love actually.

I see people around me being hurt by it. This saddens me, because I know in my heart that it should be a beautiful, joyful thing - something that could lift you. What saddens me more is that because of the hurt, they steel their hearts against any further possibilities.

It may be a wise decision, to watch and wait carefully until the right person comes along. The one who you're so sure will never break your heart.

But I also believe there's no such thing as "never".

Every time I've said "never", it's happened. The human heart is soft. The human mind is devious - it finds ways around "never". My point however is that, regardless of who one eventually chooses, there will be one day when he or she breaks your heart. It cannot be avoided because there are an infinite number of things in the world that could do that, some not even by your lover's choice.

Hurt cannot be avoided, so why avoid love? It's true, they go together, but medicines are sometimes bitter too. (Well, for that matter, alcohol is bitter, and look what it does to your liver, but still people drink!) Sometimes when I see the hurt around me that lingers... I wish I could take it away. It stops people from running. It stops people from trying again.

You tell me fools rush in. Sigh. I am a fool, I think. Have been, will be. Always and forever.

:: nimezs @ 12:23 am [+] ::

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:: Thursday, December 22, 2005 ::

You'd be pissed if someone changed your article, wouldn't you? Well, I had the weirdest dream where the editor of the magazine that I was writing for changed the entire meaning of my article, rewrote the words, added his own pictorial content, which sucked, frankly, and to top it all off, changed the LANGUAGE the article was written in.

I was so angry. I was screaming at him that the assignment did not mention that it was to be in Chinese and the way he re-wrote the article made it entirely off-topic.

Not to mention the fact that he used horribly out-of-focus pictures to illustrate the article. And gave me credit for it!

As if I would want to be credited for a piece of crap I did not write.

It was quite a funny dream. I was so mad I wanted to hit him, although other people stepped in to prevent a ruckus, so I couldn't.

And I hate people who say "I want to" and then later don't for no good reason at all.

:: nimezs @ 12:14 pm [+] ::

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:: Wednesday, December 21, 2005 ::

Look, all out in the open now. Washing my laundry.

Here's the address of my ex secret blog. I don't have any more use for it and I'm not ashamed of my weakness anymore. Indulge yourself with my ranty whining. Though I must warn you, please don't look at it if you think you may cry. I know it made me do so in my more depressed times.

I want to begin this process of opening up to people. To stop relying on my own strength. My secrets have expiry dates, apparently. But because you are special to me, I will share them with you.

:: nimezs @ 3:46 am [+] ::

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Bleagh

I think I should definitely stay away from the milky stuff before bed. Am feeling kinda full and pukey right now. Coffee bad....

:: nimezs @ 12:21 am [+] ::

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:: Tuesday, December 20, 2005 ::

Bangkok

Well, I'm back. I loved the trip, to say nothing of the company! I can't plan holidays for nuts, or take care of myself, but it's a good thing the people I travel with can. In exchange, I'll follow you anywhere and do whatever you want without complaint. Almost anything.

Hey, I dispensed massages, you know. Free.

Lol. I'm so glad I went. Got to know everyone better and I have to say I definitely feel more amiable towards them now. Nel is a fantastic travel companion. She'll bargain for you, point out items you want and since she has a love for good food, you'll never want for it.

Since I read her post before doing mine, I have to say I'm a little influenced by what she wrote. We travelled in two groups most of the time, and I have to say that Eugene cracks me up with his weird jokes and ideas. He's such ham too. Keeps asking for photos and videos to be taken of himself. But I do love subjects who pose willingly for me. Benjamin, on the other hand, doesn't. Still, he really surprised me, because I never knew him that well to begin with. He's much cheekier than I expected - behind that innocently boyish face is a crazily suggestive mind.

Erin and Ryan I didn't travel around much with, but I have to say they were great fun during the drinking games. Er. That doesn't shed a very good light on them, huh? *grin* They seem like a nice couple though, and I *know* Erin is nice.

I don't know what else to write now, except that I really do enjoy travelling with friends and I hope I'll have the opportunity to do it again with other friends. Then I can compare and contrast - is it friends in general I like to travel with, or just this particular group of friends. Heh.

I'll end off with a quote I thought was rather true that I read whilst surfing today.

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings." - Anais Nin

:: nimezs @ 1:21 am [+] ::

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